Nauseous

Dizziness again. I need blood.

Anyhow, week's coming to an end very soon. And very very soon I'll be on my way to get my passport stamped in a country across the globe, somewhere I thought I'd never have the chance to step foot in. My cells are excited but my brain is tired.

A lot of celebrations lately. A lot of teeth-showing occasions and a lot of face capturing moments. All's great, really, or at least it seems to be to me. And there's always a but that follows. 

Living in the days, getting by the minutes. Somehow I get the feeling that I'm walking on a floating platform.

Dried rose

It happens. Memory loss.

Something that no one can control. Not the time it happens, not the things that are forgotten. The undefined emptiness and loss, the strain in the brain, like a person just awoke from a clueless dream.

Yet, certain things haunts and stalks.

Everything. There is only so much that can be recalled, and there is only so much that can be dispelled.

Stories are histories. Histories form stories.

Not that it was regret that outlined the youth once lived, it was the unexplained move once made.

Captured

I was bored during the train ride home. Didn't bring my iTouch because I thought I'd read today but nay .. Enough words for the day. Boredom ruled. So I guess I'll give extra credit to electronics with regards to solving boredom.

Explored my 7 months old birthday phone and scrolled down the contacts. Realized there're many friends I'd like to meet, if time permits and energy grants. But well, just meet them one at a time. As far as I am concerned, weekends full, days are packed, schedules tight. Good or bad.. I've yet to figure out.

Anyway it rained today. BAH. There it goes again. Ruining the chance I've been waiting for to get a new watch. YAY. OH I so love watches, yes. I've been wearing an untickable one for days because it died 2 weeks back. But I feel uncomfortable and empty when not wearing one so ended up wearing a time-paused device. And it amazingly ticked backwards occasionally.

How nice.

And one belated update, Japan was great though language is a little problem and weather a very huge problem. It's oversunny there and to think that we actually carry the thought of getting a break from the daily sunshines in Singapore for a cooling breather in Japan. Cross it out! It's worse over there. Is Japan closer to the sun or what? It's perspiringly hot everyday! And sun shines at 04:00AM in the morning. Got a shock of my life when I woke up in the middle of the night thinking I overslept and spent my precious getaway sleeping instead of burning calories.

Booked

It's getting a little crazier these days and was wondering if all the rush of events made it even worse. Not to mention bad timings of happenings contribute to the pile. 

And time flies. These are the two words which used to irritate me (I don't know why), maybe because when long lost friends becomes hi-bye friends and meet on the streets, these words  just roll out from their tongues perfectly. Which still doesn't really make any sense for me to dislike the phrase, I know. Just, just ..

Regardless, it passes so fast that I find no effort needed to lose count in the hours, in the tickings of the clock. Everything is just happening that when I paused to think, I don't know what's going on.

Takes a while.