Lie to Me

Dream - send me a sign

Turn back the clock

Give me some time

I need to break out

Make a new name

Let's open our eyes

To the brand new day

珍贵

口是心非

以为今天可以带着真的微笑度过, 我错了。甚至连假笑的力气都没拿出。
以为今天可以不掉泪地度过, 我错了。就在我说晚安之前, 又掉了。

思念

00:30

虽然辛苦, 但情绪算稳定下来了。

无力地过了这一天, 勇敢地过了这个星期。也许, 心中的感觉和脑里的理智还有点差异。因为它们不配合, 所以我还是无法散处掉半夜莫名的起身和突然的空荡。

明天又是一天, 也是上班的一天。满足我的睡眠吧。明天的笑容, 也许会是真实的。

提心吊胆

我头很痛。我想要哭。我只想哭。我不是很强的一个人。我是一个遇到伤心事时会想要哭的人。

默默

又过了一天, 但心里还是很难受。我不能做什么, 而就因为这样, 心里就是更不舒服。
一个一个, 一个一个的, 出现了每个不欢迎的突然。

我的心很累 。。很想哭 。。很想痛快地再大哭一场, 只是, 现在的泪水无法流出眼角 。

我真的很不舒服。出去见人, 正面的确露了牙齿, 笑了。但又有几次是真的微笑?

我用自己的方式来鼓励自己。

GRACE GRACE declared

Psalm 89:34
My covenant I will not break, nor alter the word that has gone out of My lips.

十一点

夜悉了, 太阳升了。

事情的经过仍然没变, 梦里的希望仍然在梦里实现。

时间不能到转, 但就算时间再次从来, 不见得一切会有所改变。 故事有了了断, 有了句号。突然地在一瞬间里, 一切都测测低低地结束了。

理想中的完美结局, 是真是假? 就连一个最平凡的生活都会吸引到不欢迎的突然。

突然的一个晚上, 突然的一个举动, 突然的一句话。
吓到了。我愣了。

唯一能找到的安慰是这也许对某人会是更好。

含着眼泪, 闭上双眼, 这样入睡 。。

破了，毁了，放开了

到底是用了什么样的心态来面对？从头到尾，从一开始，心 应该以被敲了几百遍，但还得装一幅没事的样子，继续默默地为某人付出。

你累了，心坏了，泪干了。

现在的路眼前虽然看不到，但我想相信，一切都会变好的。

My best friend

With hidden tears in her eyes, she braved the oppositions.
Mustering raindrops of positivity, she ignites the flame.

For you.
Climb on.

Defined beauty

And that is the power of Social Media.

I'll always be appalled by the quickness of some to ignite a topic, pointing fingers and commenting non-stop as if gossiping makes their lives more vibrant. Not that I don't gossip, but not to the extent some would go to.

Watch this video: Cystic Acne Coverage with make up

I caught the first glimpse on Facebook and a couple of others later who posted the same. It was nice to see those who gave her the thumbs up for her bravery but I came across a channel who reposted her video with the subject header as "Never trust girls with make up. You will regret if you are still alive (upon seeing their faces)".

I sympathize too. How many of us honestly, would want to step out of the house with this condition?

I daresay it's almost none. In today's society, beauty defines a person. Carrying a face that's avoided by the public shows that people are afraid of you. But let me tell you this - that individual is actually more afraid of the world.

Cosmetics, beauty enhancement supplements or whichever you name it.. Is it really that toxic that cause people to be so mean?  In fact, waking up everyday is a torture if your face doesn't heal with time. It hurts the soul and damages its roots.

Everybody wants to look good, but not everybody can. 

Everybody likes natural beauty, but not everybody has.

For you, I will.

Heard - in Your Name.

3 hearts given

Make it known.

Feet on ground

You may be higher in rank, but I have a voice too.

Written promises

Blessed Sunday morning! 

On the way to church and once again excited for today's message. Glad that I've somehow managed to climb out of the bed.. though it's 99% because if I let myself up at the second snooze,  my sis will flip me upside down for setting an alarm which I'm not waking up to.

Anyhow, it's gonna be a beautiful Sunday. Went out of the house with a pretty face, on the way to meet my pretty cousin, waiting to hear an all so abundant grace message. HYA!

Perspective. 

That's my morning reason to blog. 

I shan't undo my words last night but I shall do some correction paragraphs here. Truth is, my life isn't that bad. It's just too colourful (declaring the opposite).

It's not at all that doubtful considering how far I've walked the journey I've chosen. No doubt there are difficult times, the promises given will come fulfilled. Thankfulness comes in remembrance that I've got a dream job, a chance to finish my degree in shorter time frame, many more. I may have a what seems-to-be a horrible schedule that made me rant and over exaggerate my somewhat self pity plight,  but I know how blessed I am.

TOO BLESSED TO BE STRESSED!

Exams are coming, but I believe my ridiculous grades will turn into miracle stars. Watch. Year Two shall be cleared in Jesus's name!

AMEN AMEN.

Year One bridging results comes as my assurance.

Only human.

I've hit 0%

23:50hrs: I'm seated on the floor, phone blogging in my recovery state. 

I just got home from yet another weekend event, of which KM also bought a table for SDA gala dinner, celebrating their 75th anniversary. An "eventful" long day.. No.. Have been long full weeks. Seriously. Sickening March and April. Schedule so packed with work and school.. 7 days a week straight for more than a month. If I had not taken some leave in between, I would not have lasted till today.

Story short - After the gala dinner, I was so happy to hail a cab home that I may rest during the journey. Little did I realize that the long-waited rest was replaced with queasiness in the stomach. The journey home was so unbearable and I can throw up anytime in the cab. When I finally reached home, I threw up good.

I guess even my stomach can't stomach the accumulated fatigue >.< This period is like the sickening never-ending 400km round the stadium with depleted energy in its final round.

I've got back my results: 4 modules - 2 failed,  1 barely passed, 1 awaiting results. And so far, worst grade gotten is 20/100.

I need a miracle.